I have finally finished my dissertation! I actually finished it on Tuesday, and even handed it in a couple of hours early after being up all night re-doing my literature review and other bits and pieces. I literally didn't have any sleep, I was up until 8:30am finishing it. Probably the most stressful night of my entire life. *sigh* I have no idea what it's like, I have the feeling it's absolutely terrible, and I'm really annoyed at myself for not doing a better job on it, which is super annoying because I've spent so long working on the damn thing!
For the past 6 months I've been researching and reading for it, and for the past two months I've been doing nothing but writing my dissertation. Woken up - dissertation. During the day - dissertation. Before going to sleep - dissertation. At work - dissertation. I thought I'd be happy and feel carefree when it was done and handed in, but actually, I can't stop worrying about it. If I get a bad grade then the past three years would have been a complete waste of time and money and energy. If I fail I may as well have stayed in Australia and not bothered making my entire family move back to the UK so I could go to Uni here. Ugh. I don't even know when we get the results back, so I don't know how long I need to keep worrying for :(
And for some strange and bizarre reason I am now thinking of doing a Masters Degree. What is wrong with me!? There's no way I'm going to get the degree needed for a Masters, so I'm basically just setting myself up to be disappointed! *sigh*
In happier news, this weather has been absolutely beautiful!! On Tuesday after handing in our dissertations a couple of friends and I went to the bar to have cocktails, before spending the day relaxing outside on the Quad at Uni (a large grassy area in the middle of the lecture centres), drinking wine. It was lovely. Although I don't remember much. After two months of not getting drunk I decided disso hand-in day had to be an exception to the rule, so I drank a bottle of wine in less than half an hour, and we got very merry, before I slept in the sunshine on the quad for the rest of the day, only being woken up by friends to move to the student union bar, where I also fell asleep.
Wednesday we had our last Video Production lecture where we watched all of our Horror Films - they're being shown at the Odeon in Uxbridge in May!! YAY! I'll post mine up here as soon as I get a copy on a disc. After our lecture we all went for drinks and food before I headed into London for drinks at the O&C to celebrate with my London friends.
And then yesterday was my last ever lecture at Uni - emotional times!! Rosa and I are definitely going to miss Steve. He was such an amazing lecturer - explained everything really well and kept you concentrated by being so funny.
|Me with my bound Dissertation :)|
|Cocktails after hand-in!|